The answers are there if you’re willing to listen.
Inner conflict really can break you down. Emotional pain can weigh down on us so much that our physical being becomes next to paralysed. I’ve struggled big time recently with emotional distress and it really does bring life into perspective and the shift in mindset that I have experienced has been immense.
Sometimes we have to be jolted into turmoil in order to see and appreciate the horizon. And sometimes you have to do the jolting yourself.
Sometimes you have to let go of the things and the people you so dearly attach yourself to in order to plunge yourself into your fears. And only then will you discover whether or not you can stand on your own two feet. You have to go against your very nature and remove yourself from comfort so that you get the chance to face your demons. You don’t want to deal with your fears. You don’t feel ready, you want to remain in the bubble of dependence you have built using pieces from those around you. You don’t want to let go of seemingly beautiful things in your life. You don’t want to embark on this journey. You don’t want to face everything you have put so much energy into protecting yourself from.
But you know deep down that you need to prove to yourself that you can do it.
And just knowing this is strength in itself. It’s the first step – simply having that gut feeling means you have reached a stage where a part of you knows that you need to spread your wings, face your fears. You have grown to the point where your stronger – but perhaps smaller – inner being wants to tackle the world and overcome her problems, even though the rest of you is terrified and unwilling.
You can’t be whole if you are dependent on external validation. You’ll never know if you can brave it alone. You’ll never know if you are capable of being whole and full and happy by yourself. So take the jump and start learning to love yourself and your own company. You are enough. We have everything we need within ourselves to feel whole, we just need to realise it.
I am pretty exhausted and have been for a long while now. Life has subtle ways of telling you when things aren’t quite right and listening to your intuition is crucial. I learned this the hard way, continuously battling against my gut feelings in order to maintain whatever comfort I wanted to hold onto in the moment, and it became debilitating. How many times have you ignored that feeling at your core only for it to grow and consume you? You desperately try to suppress it and outweigh it with logic and reason, only for it to drown you.
Waking up nauseous in the mornings filled with anxiety and not being able to pinpoint it. ‘I’m so tired’ being the most frequent endeavour on your tongue when from an outside eye you should be full of young energy and life. Feeling burdened by consciousness on a day to day basis because your fears are staring you in the face, but you frantically shut them out.
We try so hard to remain in control of our lives and we don’t want to face emotional adversity or inner conflict. Sometimes the things we so desperately cling to begin to no longer serve us. And that can be hard if not impossible to come to terms with let alone acknowledge in the first place. But sometimes if we just listen to what our bodies are trying to tell us we will be faced with the authenticity of the truth – and relief will come if we follow it. I’m starting to realise this now.
In all matters in life I believe that when you listen to your gut feeling, intuition, calling or whatever you want to name it, you will feel the strength of acting in accord with the core of your being and things will begin to fall into place. It may cause pain and it may cause heartache, but ultimately you will know that it is right, it is your truth. And this will guide you through the pain. And you will emerge on the other side a stronger version of yourself.
Fear is blind, but as soon as you step over the edge of the unknown, life will catch you. Just trust it.